melsamei's Cancer Blog
September 5, 2008
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I had my nipple tattoo’s yesterday. It was not what I expected but then nothing in this process has been what I expected. I highly recommend the shot to numb your chest. I was tough and used only the cream. Another of my many bad decisions. Of course, I have never had a tattoo and my experience was nothing like LA INK. I felt some discomfort and I should of had a cocktail prior to the procedure. On secone thought, I should have washed down a narcotic with the cocktail. The hardest part was being awake while a machine was running and you are being “worked on”. I can not decide if I like the tattooing. It always takes me a few months to decide.
Anyway, I am very happy with my reconstruction but the nurse had my before photos out as a guide and I forgot what I used to look like. I was a little depressed because I had forgotten. I am now accustomed to the new normal, the new me. The short hair, the scars, the breasts with no sag, the compression sleeve, etc. I had forgotten that I thought of myself as beautiful. I had never dreamed of plastic surgery, botox or restalyne. Now, I am ready for all of it.
I feel so aged from this experience. Everyone says I look great but I see something different. I see myself as broken or not quite right. I see a person that looks old and haggard. I no longer see myself as youthful. I am not sure if that is the effect of cancer or aging. I like to blame the cancer.
Tomorrow is a new day and I hope my doldrums will be over.
Thanks for your support -
Melissa,
We are all aging faster than before, stress, treatment and the damn cancer. That being said, I think that we all have a new since of beauty. Were we may have given lip service to inner-beauty before we can all truly see it now. I know I have have not suffered changes on the same level as you, but after returning to work with a eye that looked like I had been on a 5 day bender and didn’t move quite right. I felt pride as I walked around the office and spoke to people, I felt much stronger than I would have before. I am sure that everyone would agree that you continue to be beautiful with your inner-beauty making up any difference.
EyeCandy,
Paul
Mi Melissa,
I feel aged too. I think its the stress. My hair is so thin and broken from wearing a ponytail for almost 6 months through care. I try to think that my rivers run much deeper now and my beauty along with it. Of course I am never opposed to botox! I love my scars and I call them princess warrior scars. I never try to hide them and you can see my underarm scar when I wear a evening top. I somehow think you are stunning just the way you are.
Big Hug
Kathleen
That is the best opening line I have ever seen! I mean bar none, top shelf. I opened the home page and read that and almost fell outta the chair laughing.
If I were you I would open every conversation like that for months.I am still chuckling. Cancer is an amazing thing for dropping inhibitions and making all of us drop the masks.
So about your tattooing…I also had some ink yesterday. I had the creases of my elbows done, no cream or drinks. I love it, but then I am a fry or twelve short of a happy meal.
I pray you are happy with your tats. I pray they give you a sense of beauty and wholeness. I am so happy you are strong and willing to share so that others might gather strength from your story. Thank you and welcome to the wonderful world of tattooing.
Hugz
Mac
Thanks for all of your comments. It is nice to have some kind words and support. I was having a really depressed day. I am generally a good sport and a fighter but I was a little moody. It will take time to get used to my freshly tattooed area but sometimes it is day to day. I am going to a really cool Everest Rocks party tomorrow. I keep you all posted. I will be partying like a rockstar!
Melissa
I’m glad your happy with your reconstruction, i have spent the last year so depressed about mine.
i never got a chance to have any ink, because a year after the imolants they have rupctured and now i’m tring to have them removed.
just remember it could be worse.
Glad to hear things went well. How many hours were you in surgery for reconstruction?
Also, thank ou so much fr your support. The hair thing , well, I’m keeping it as long as I can. I’m not ready to shave it yet.
Sonia
Thanks for the input about the greens. I have had so many lately. I will add some more to my diet. Anything to stop having to get Chemo.
Hiya,
I take Mona Vie as well. I sell it. The Dr. made me quit taking it three days before and 3 days after my treatments. I was told that it was keeping the cchemo from working. I still take it, but not as often as I want to.
Thank you for the information.
Sonia
My 2nd cousin had a tatoo as well and was really happy with the results. It took her about a month to love it.
I can’t imagine what I am going to look like after all this as well. It’s something I think anout often. I can already see the changes in my face.
By the way – I think you look fantastic!
Sonia